thanks giving

Hello Bloggers!
Happy thanksgiving to everyone! I hope everyone is enjoying the long weekend.

So far I am. This morning I took a flight out @ 530 am to visit my grandparents in Nothern Ontario. I am on 3 hours of sleep but as tired as I am, I don't think I'll be going to bed soon! My grandfather is really ill and I an currently waiting for his nurse to come by for his check up. After that I will be going to the casino with him, he loooves his keno!! LOL. I don't have a blast at the casino but that's probably because I can only gamble 10 dollars.

I've been pretty bored all day though because my grandfather slept all day - we usuallŸ play cards, and it would get pretty competitive. I have a lot of cousins who also live here but I'm not sure where everyone is.

The good news is, I just got the internet on my blackberry but its sooo hard to adjust. I have had the time to learn today. I am still trying to figure out how too read blogs ...I can't find them on my phone. Actually...it took me awhile to find out how to blog this lol.

Anyways that's all for now!!

S.

whoa so longg!!

Hi everyone,

I know its been such a long time since I last posted anything...I have been and still am so busy!!!!! But I am just in one of those moods to type away...
So my LSAT course is coming to an end... I am not as prepared as I expected to be but I have 2 and half months left...ITS GOING TO BE SERIOUS STUDY TIME!
I quit one of my jobs 3 weeks ago...my last official day was Tuesday... which means I now have more time to study for the LSAT. I am still trying to complete my undergrad .....but I'm sooo close!!

Last month I went for an MRI because my head is constantly hurting but I just got the results in yesterday and everything is fine. My doctor thinks its a variety of things such as stress (I have been feeling stressed about so many things lately), constantly reading, and TMJ. Both my family doctor and dentist recommend I start going for massages. So I did............YESTERDAY......and it was so relaxing...it was costly but I am planning on continuing this hah! I also went out for dinner last night with two girlfriends I haven't seen in a couple of months. It was sooo nice to dine and laugh!

Today was another pretty special day.....I went on a helicopter ride with my nephew. There was a place, not too far from me, that was offering helicopter rides ...it was 12 minutes long. It was beautiful, such a different experience than a plane thats for sure...10000 times better!! As for tonight...I am staying in...I am exhausted, I want to read a bit, and relax

Anyways other then that I hope everyone reading this is doing extremely well and are not to stress with things.

Talk soon

S.

why oh why...

Hello my lovely blogger friends...I know I have been MIA its just the LSAT prep class is really taking its course! I had a mock test on Monday, and I, uh failed. TOTALLY my fault...its been a month since the class started and it seems so easy and doable but its all about timing, and mastery...and I have yet to achieve these on my own! I WILL GET THERE...because now I am focused. In fact tomorrow I plan on waking up early and spending my day devoted to practicing, and of course I will probably stop half way through and do something totally un necessary or irrelevant. Isn't it so funny that when you have to do something, you manage to stop and do something that is not really that important, and you do it subconsciously lol

Recently, I was talking to my rents, and they are thinking that they may want my car, but in replacement get me a similiar, newer car...I am all for this idea, or I was anyways. Lately I have been noticing alot of door dings on my car, I hit the car a couple of times (mostly my fault), and someone hit me. Last week, I was careless not paying attention and bumped into a car infront of me, in the DRIVE THRU. Luckily, the gentleman was so nice and understanding, there was no damage on his car, and well mine I haven't fixed it yet from the previous time. The other night, I was in a parking lot and once again a car was backing up and just touched my car, there was no damage just a couple of scratches. A car is a car, it is suppose to take you from point A to point B, but I have just been feeling that I am such a bad driver and do not deserve a newer car. It really got to me, and I have been meaning to express it because I take it personally. I started realizing, that its not my car, its not me (well sometimes) but it may in fact bethat I tend to drive alot. I am usually at the mall or a coffee shop where there are cars flying through. I want a newer car, but I am also ok with this car.

Thats all for now ...talk to you all soon!

S.

Spare some change?

A thing or two that bothers me...

Late this afternoon I arrived downtown and was walking to the building I needed to get to where I noticed a homeless male holding a sign that said 'looking for employment, please spare change'. I never thought too deeply about this man but as people walked by he was begging for their money. Normally, if I feel at ease with giving a homeless person money, I may spare them something small, this time I chose not to. I know many people who choose not to give any money ever, and frankly to each their own. The way I look at it is, regardless what they choose to do with the money its their buisness, I did my part.
There is a stereotypical assumption that all homeless people are criminals......is this true, absolutely not! Yes, many homeless people are forced into certain survival habits because they have not been given an opportunity for more. I certainly understand this, but I do know my safety is more important then giving someone 50 cents. Anyways back to my story...
Late this evening I was starting to head home, and around the time I was leaving it was fairly dark, it was past 9:00. I had to pass the area that homeless man was earlier, and to my surprise he was still there. I thought to my self when I saw him from far, wow he says he is trying to look for employment but its been 4 and half hours since I last saw him, in the same spot, doing the same thing.
Anyways, as I walked past him, he said hey, you spare me change please I am poor. I felt uncomfortable so I continued to walk but was worrid because in less the 10 foot steps from him, I have to turn into an allyway to walk to my car (in which by the way I ran). When he noticed I ignored his request, he actually got upset and said 'dont pretend you didn't hear me, your just trying not to make eye contact, it's cause I'm poor'.
When I got to the car, I started to think, no sir thats not why I didn't look at you...I feel for you I do, but in the society we are living in getting help starts from yourself. You stayed in the same spot from my understanding for over 4 hours, how do you think you are going to find employment by doing that. I'm being mean but seriously what bothered me is that you expect me, a woman walking alone at night downtown to bend over backwards and give you money. NO I will not do that!! This is exactly, what I would have love to say him...

Excuse me, you do not know me, nor do I know you! I dont know what brought you here, and you dont know what brought me here. When people give you money, be thankful, when people do not...dont get mad and start yelling. You are begging me for money but guess what...I should be able to walk on this street and feel like I shouldn't have to run when YOU get upset because I didn't give you change! AND another thing, many homeless people get upset and feel like people are being mean to them by IGNORING THEM, but its just individuals like you, who have made girls walking alone down the street AFRAID, yes afraid to make eye contact.

I truly am venting, I do indeed feel for those who are not fortunate, even thoose who struggle because of their own fault but it can be very scary when you are alone, and pre concieved stereotypes are being reminded in your head because a homeless person is snapping on you because you chose not to give him any money.

Anyways that was my blog for the day!

Goodnight.

Crazy days!

I know I haven't been much of a blogger these day but I am here now, which is what matters. Today I am going to blog about something that I have been dealing with for a while which gave me a HUGE scare!
When I was in highschool and first half of university, my fav past time was tanning - seriously it was a hobby and I got addicted. I always told my self I could stop when I wanted but everytime I tried and my tan would fade even just a little, I would go crazy and say to my self 'ok one more month and I'll stop' or 'ah, I have my gf's birthday next weekend and then a wedding the weekend after etc etc'. I always had a reason not to stop.
In May 2009, I was on my computer and was doing an essay when I decided to stop take a look at my self and realize, I have like 100 little beautymarks/moles in which I HATE them all! What did I do, I visited my old friend Mr. Google...and guess what Mr. google told me......BAD THINGS! I started getting really worried and told my self that once my exams were over I really need to get checked out. I did, and this was where I stopped tanning in tanning beds and very rarely tan outside during the summer. My doctor told me I really had nothing to worry about but he would send me to a dermatologist to make me feel at ease. It took 3 months to get the appointment and in November 2009 I finally went to see a dermatologist. She was really nice, but really serious. She told me that some of the moles on my body raise concern and I need to now take extra care...which I have been trying!
Since November I have removed 10 moles, 2 of which have had to be removed twice as they have come back. I had my 3 month check up last week where I removed two and my doctor just reminded to make sure I am protecting myself against the sun.

I actually grew to love my self not being tanned as crazy as it sounds and I have now realized that I wasted alot of money and gained wrinkles on something that is temprorary and really not worth it.

My dermatologist is really good so up until Sunday night I really had no worries about my issue with my skin. I started watching grey's anatomy lately, and I am on season 5 where Izzy (for those of you who watch it) gets diagnosed of melanoma from just removing one mole. It bothered me and started to get me thinking so I went to Mr. google again. This time I have more information on the type of moles I have which all come back as dyplastic. Google over mentions that those who have dyplastic nevus has higher risks of melanoma espesically if they have a history of being exposed to the sun = ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I tried hard not to think about it and ended up going to sleep. The next day my family doctor called mentioning he'd like to see me tomororw (which was Tuesday) regarding my last weeks results. Of course at this point, I'm thinking...first, why is my family doctor calling me about my results when this is like the 5th time I'm waiting on results and I always deal with it with my dermatologist, secondly, why hasn't she called me, and thirdly, I'm thinking worst case scenario.

I went crazy that night because I was thinking of grey's anatomy, google, and trying to figure out why he wants to see me.

Anyways, the next day I ended up sleeping in because I went to bed so late, I missed the first half of my class, and was barely hungry - which is SO UNUSUAL!
Lucky for me, I had a friend after class who was trying to assure me its not a big deal, and trying to keep my mind off of things until I had to go to my appointment. I decided to go earlier then 4:30 pm (my appointment).
I get there at 1 30 and my family doctor is out for lunch for an hour...I decide to go to the dermatologist office as they are in the same building and they were so confused because they did not get my results and were unsure as to why my family doctor was calling me about it and why he got them before the derma office.
Anyways, they managed to get the results and told me all was fine and they were a bit upset that my family doctor would call me for NOTHING.
This in fact was not true, my family doctor was looking out for me and my well being. He is aware of the family history in my family and how many extended memebers have had cancer so he wants to assure that I am being treated properly. The results were not completely fine - BUT NOT WORRYSOME like how I had been. The results just simply indicated that one mole was severely dyplastic which means if it is not removed from the root it will spread quicky in my body and possibly (not necessarily) turn into melanoma.

Anyways this post is really long, lol...but the good news is my family doctor spoke to my derma doctor and I have another appointment on Tuesday for a removal.

I hope everyones week is going well, not to stressful, and the weekend is ALMOST here !

A woman's gotta do what a woman has to do!

So today I had a pretty good and long day. I had summer school in the morning, then lunch and manage to fit some time in to paint my nails. When I got to the nail salon I really had to peeeeee......but I held it in - I'm not sure why I just didn't use the nail salons washroom. Anyways 2 hours pass and still haven't made it to the washroom but begin driving downtown to my LSAT course. Anyways at this point ...I really have to pee......I get to class early and ask two male class mates if they know where the washroom is on the floor we were on. They told me out side the classroom door there are two keys one for the girls washroom and one for the guys washroom. I took the girls washroom key and proceeded to the washroom...I tried for 10 minutes to unlock the door and it wouldn't open. This anxciousness contributed to the fact that at this point I REALLY needed to go to the washroom. I went back into the class room, and told the guys the door wouldn't open.....hoping one would come and try. THEY DIDNT REALLY CARE. So I went back on my own.......and I took the GUYS washroom key and unlocked the guys washroom and saw something........A SUPER CLEAN QUIET TWO STALL WASHROOM WITH TWO URINALS. I quickly realized it was not a private bathroom (so whats with the need for the keys?) I did my buisness as quick as possible because I was afraid if someone were to come in.....I gave my hands a wash...and as I open the door another guy was walking towards the washroom. Now did he see me come out of the males washroom? not sure.......but at that point I was just relieved and the good news is...the guy that saw me wasn't in my class so I knew I wouldn't have to deal with his thoughts while we are trying to learn logical games...PHEW.

Other then that.........I have been busy with life, I am enoying the weather.....and I miss all my bloggers!!

S.

I'm sorry, Dr..what?

So I'm going to blog about something that drives me crazy in a funny/weird way about Mr.Curious...and I'm not sure if all guys do this or not........but sometimes I just want to scream when he does.

I know that sometimes, well from time to time...with life and all its stress I always have something to say like 'my head hurts' or 'mr curious, my throat hurts' or maybe 'ahhh my throat hurts'. Maybe I'm a bit of a hypocondria where I think something is always wrong with me. When my head hurts I automatically think worst case scenario...and yes sometimes I do result in everyones little friend called google but hey sometimes you jus can't help it

ANYWAYS...none the less...Mr Curious response is always the same thing...he thinks I over look things and it is sometimes in my head. For example, if I decide to go to the doctors for a headache, and by chance my doctor will say well you know you might need glasses or its your jaw that can be causing these pains - check your eyes and if thats not it we will see what else. When I leave and update this to mr curious, he response is 'you dont need to go to the doctors for that - you could have just asked mr.curious'. When I mention anything about not feeling well, he DIAGNOSES me as if he has gone to med school and has some sort of credential. IT DRIVES ME CRAZY..and he knows it.....which makes him want to do it more... as I am typing this out, I can literally hear him say 'do you need dr. curious advice?' My response never changes..........'YOUR NOT A DOCTOR'


Anyways.....this is just one of those random things I felt like blogging about...

Goodnight :)